First Kiss :*

I can’t describe what it felt like, a jolt, a shiver, ecstasy. Don’t know what the word was, but it definitely felt like that first kiss.

The mind stops working, all you can hear is your own heartbeat getting slower and quicker now and then.

Eyes shut and brain signals to continue. Body begins to crumble under pure bliss.

All this and much more beautiful things happened on my first kiss.

It was the first time I felt her lips. Though I confess it wasn’t done the most romantic way, but my first kiss will still be my best. I was too naïve to understand how it would feel, nor did I do it to know. I kissed her because I felt I should. She looked so beautiful and I had no idea what to say which means “You are so beautiful”. It was computer class and we were all sitting doing some practicals in the lab.

I shared my computer with her. ‘He’ had it all planned. We did not use to have proper chairs in computer lab, they were more of stools. This made us sit closer. She used to do the work, where as I was always lost looking at her. I don’t remember what I used to think that time, may be I didn’t at all. But I remember that day, I was clearly vulnerable. It probably got accumulated from so many days. I want to show by some means or say that I am completely crazy about you but I didn’t know how and what to say.

One of the similar days when we used to sit and do some programs on one computer. She looked too irresistible. I don’t know what happened in the lab, but I remember looking at her. We used to take off shoes while entering the lab. I don’t remember what made us, but we left the lab and headed for the class room. Smriti was a little ahead of me. The classroom was good 20 meters from computer lab. I was completely mad by the time she started walking towards the class.

My mind was shouting to call her, tell her I love her and that is so beautiful that I want to be with her always, but no word came out. I kept following, just when the class was about 2 meters away.

I lunged forward, put my both hands on her shoulder and with a jerk, turn her around. She now faced me, I don’t know how my face looked like, but it must have been intense and motionless. I looked at her for a second, I never took my hands off her shoulder.

I leaned forward and looked in her eyes. She kept looking at me dead straight. She was standing there speechless….motionless. I was completely blank.

I was standing with a girl alone, too close to her face in a corridor that was visible from area only senior students and teachers move. It was next to a medical room where a nurse is always present; it was very near to canteen where anyone could walk in or out. It was too close to the Principal room too.

I was completely blank, I just kept looking in her eyes which never blinked. The next moment I felt something soft on my lips. ………………………………

I might have touched her only for a third of second. She immediately turned around and started walking blindly, just about to hit a wall. I was about to shout but I couldn’t. I was too drained. No energy left, no senses left. I couldn’t feel anything, absolutely anything. She went inside the class and after a while I realized I am still standing in the corridor. I walked inside the classroom to see she went and sat with few of the friends already in the class. I sat right opposite to her, still looking at her.

I didn’t realize what I’d done just now. I don’t remember talking to her at all for next 30 minutes probably.

I didn’t know what to say, I was still too drained out. I don’t know if anyone can understand, but a micro second kiss could drain the entire energy from a body is what really happened.

We probably said bye to each other that day and talked about it over the phone, after that day things changed slowly and we started to come closer more than we ever were.

I can’t describe what it felt like, a jolt, a shiver, ecstasy. Don’t know what the word was, but it definitely felt like that first kiss.

4^th August 1998, my first kiss … only thing in my life I do not remember with a third eye …..but my eyes.

I can’t describe what it felt like…………… but I feel it everyday.