Sunday, February 21, 2010

Feel the Feel

I am a heart person. I do things only when I feel. I can’t listen to music in low volume. Something as beautiful as music has to be felt. It has to be felt by the entire body and not just earlobes. I hate people who use earplugs. They, as I believe, dishonor music.

Defamed in neighborhood but I just can’t listen in low volume. Notes have to strike your body. They induce rhythm, they induce pleasure, pain, ecstasy……. Trance.

Even if I am hearing Jagjit Singh, I would pump up the volume. Yeah….romantic or metal, I can never listen to them unless my panes are shattering and the neighbors complaining.

I use my heart my feel in everything I do.Listening to heart keeps me at peace, happy and utterly satisfied.

I have done horrible things in my life so far. They have pained and unduly created lines around, but I never regret my decision. For me a decision either feels good or doesn’t.

I use my brain only to answer 2 + 2. It should not be disturbed otherwise. I liaise with people I connect my heart to….something like Avatar…but only a heart to heart bond.

I am not completely impulsive, unless it’s shopping of course. But would state, I do things, because I feel like doing them.

I find it impossible to decide right or wrong. I can’t advise anyone if they come up to me for a help. Can’t think logically, unless am solving a mensa or maybe klueless.

And that’s the only reason that I find Love to be the most amazing thing to happen to a human. It is such a strong feeling that your hear listen the world from your eyes and touch with your words.

Love makes everything around feel so amazing and it makes you do so many things without you realizing or deciding if it’s right or wrong. Now that’s what someone like me would understand and prefer doing.

All my life and till what ever is left I bide to be impulsive and no brain person.

I am very picky when it comes to who’s going to be in my space and periphery of it. I don’t believe in first impression but believe in first vibe. I need vibes to make be comfortable with someone. I don’t know if a person is right or wrong, but I definitely can tell if s/he will be right or wrong.

Just don’t feel right, sometimes. Do we?

There would indeed be a lot of people who fall in the same category and most of my friends are.

My friend and I, would hop on our racing bikes and make a figure of eight between moving cars. Anyone driving behind us will see two bikes racing parallel and intersecting every vehicle. We always make sure to overtake the vehicle from left and right at the same time. Leaves him shocked and numb.

I just love the fact that for an instance, I just made someone to forget everything and feel this surprise.

It does wakes up some sleepy humans. The idea is to show that what a heart feels is so much stronger to what a mind says.

I believe..you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe .. Credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being. What you feel of others and life does.

I live for moments that touch the heart so bad that it makes you numb. You might kiss 100 times a day but sometimes her hand on your chest will feel like melting your whole skin. When you remember someone so strongly and just then they call, or when someone don't speak on the phone and you know its them because you can feel it.

Just yesterday on my way to office, there were a flock of nurses, may be trainees but neatly dressed trying to cross the road.


I know the area and right next to the spot is an Army Base Hospital. In Salutation I screeched and offered them to cross. All the nurses ran as if this the only chance for them to outrun the chicken and reach the other end.

One of them, nearest to my car, turned back smiled and said Thank you. She couldn’t see me through tinted doors, I couldn’t hear her with the panes up. She never knew who stopped for them,

But Honestly it felt really Good.