5 CROSS 2

Chanting “Vowe You” while I drove balancing the one side heavy with the grocery and vegetable shopping, we both sounded stupid may be. I at least would have. Saying “vowe you” to my just married better half from inside a helmet. Sounding less romantic and more resonant I guess. Our marriage didn’t start well, with me having to find another job a week before the D-day and she happened to quit hers almost at the same time.

The jobless couple moving to a new city, unfinished house and unfinished dreams, we thought this is a battle worth fighting. With Smriti life becomes a lot easier. As big bundle of energy this small girl is, life is never short of fun. No matter how tired, fatigued, depressed or drowned in lowness, her magic pips me to my best instantly. I call this the magic of 5 CROSS 2.

5 cm CROSS 2 cm.

This bundle of energy will burst immediately in some jumping romping little pup who would cross sofa to bed to dining to kitchen to bath all jumping in about 30 seconds. Singing and dancing and baby acting and antics ……… she is so cuddling that it takes mere 30 seconds to lift my mood.

And with days when we were counting the coins to get the expenses going, it was much needed.

With her, I am my best. It just happens. I can blame it on 5 CROSS 2 each time.

Sometimes consoling was tough. While I convince her that I will make every thing right and we will have a happy married life, she would help not questioning it many times what she feels.

Marriage has been roller coaster, with having done the rituals that feel funny when you are a part of them and few that feel “Complete” and soul. The mantras in Sanskrit that Pandit would ask to recite and repeat would make you realize that marriage is much more than crackers and dresses.

Being a son of a Sanskrit Teacher, understanding and reciting the mantras weren’t that difficult. The entire two and half hours of wedding ceremony made me realize the promises that I make today in front of both families, my wife, the sky, water, food and FIRE make the most sense for the rest of my life.

The moment I put the garland in her neck, when she sat next to me in front of Agni, when I tied the mangalsutra in her neck and put the Sindoor ( vermillion ) ……. I didn’t get the feel that I am married now, but that I HAVE POSSESSED SOMETHING INVALUABLE AND LIFELONG WITH ME.

Its been 3 months now and I’ve had her with me for 24 hrs all these 90 days. With she looking amazing everyday and growing beautiful, I couldn’t have asked for anything in life.

Now with the house all complete and new set of wheels, I drive to office holding her hand, chanting “Vowe You” sitting next to her, this time more romantic and less resonant.

I promised her to make everything right, everything is Great. But I didn’t do it.

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It was 5 CROSS 2