What is that I need ?

Don't feel like working, but then..... when do i? may be twice in an year I feel happy to come to work :) ....most of us do not more than that I guess...... * stupid smile *

"let me sleep a bit more", I don't wanna go to office". I said to myself and obediently I agreed.

Not sleepy with thoughts, or sleepy with active thoughts, whichever you wanna call it, yesterday hovered behind the retina and I was determined to take a rest today.

Yesterday was not pathetic, was not disappointing, was not sad...was not even a BAD DAY. It was just not good. Nothing seemed to interest me, work ( never does :) ), Songs, surfing, friends, reading. Nothing uplifted the mood, the tempo, the feel.

The will to start something interested died instantly after starting something "interesting".

I just couldn't figure out what I needed. What would make me "go" again. What would make me "feel" again. What would make the day, not just another day, but a day to remember and smile.

I just couldn't figure out. Nothing was prompting, nothing was instinctive. All around it was bald. The day was about to end, but I was still not happy that it is....I wanted to know what I needed to make me "go", to make me "feel".

I felt numb to just anything happening inside me and around me.

10:30 PM, its time to pack, the cab is waiting outside. May be I wouldn't know what I Needed TODAY. May be tomorrow I will, I am just to numb to think of anything, I said to myself. One last consoling statement, out of desperation.

Sitting in the cab, listening to peers, their kinda day, their kinda fun, their kinda feel, and I wondered if I could take something that they used to make my day little more livable today.

I ruined a day of my life, Had I know what I needed to make it better, I wouldn't lost 24 hrs of my life sitting numb.

Reaching home normally is pleasant, ........normally. I opened the door...with a heavy head and a sinking heart........I lost a day without any reason, without knowing why I lost it

and then......just when the day was about to end ......she showed me what I wanted. She showed me what I really really needed to have my day a wonderful one. She showed me what it takes to "FEEL" the feel again.


"Papaaaaaa", she screamed with joy. She could hardly speak it clearly. She Hugged my tightly, trying to fit me in her arms. Her soft hands on my arms, her head on my shoulder, her voice in my ear and the most beautiful smiling eyes.... I realized what I needed.



I needed a Hug.