Crossroads...

She knew it will be short lived. Her love for him was a nothing but strong fondness to the Cute, innocent happy looking person. Its matter of time that it will fade. He is indeed a nice person, but there are shades to him which can be troubling. Troubling more than the pleasure his smile gives.

He was in a habit to smile away the trouble. A smile is the answer for all the questions he is asked and he doesn't know what to say. That smile will take your heart away, make you smile as well and you feel like cuddling him and pull his cheeks.

But how long till this all looks normal and OK? How long till his smile doesn't move you anymore? How long till his antics are no more amusing? Marriages can change the strongest and the most patient. Will he be like it? Will I love him just the way I do? Will I have that fondness to him even five years down the line?


She knew the answer, she was scared to hear it. She was scared to know that this is short lived. Love for a person for the way he is, is always short lived, Love, however for a soul is infinite and indefinite.

She never loved his soul, he would make me feel special by his presence, but won't "touch" me. He would kiss me and kiss me nice but my body doesn't shivers giving me goosebumps when I remember it.

He would hold me, but I would never feel companionship in his touch, he would make me laugh all day, But I am not happy.

She was greatly in love with him, but she loved the person. What if the person starts to change? .............and he already was. What if what she has seen of him, is the only best part that he has?

She was about to marry him, but was not able fight the ideas that were cropping. They were scary and misleading. When she sees him, standing in front of her, smiling..she was to run and be in her arms. Once she is there, she wants to come out and say, you are not the "one" for me.



She keeps toggling between the feel and feel was stronger both the times. She wants to be sure about this relationship and nothing was leading her to a decision. She wanted to be 100% while she was in his arms and not think about the world. Apparently that wasn't happening. Perhaps she needs more time, she should give him more time, she SHOULD give herself more time. But time is something she was always less with.



She needs to decide to go in his arms or stay and wait for him to be ready for her. She needs to decide if He is the "ONE" or destiny has chosen someone else. She needs to decide if the love will not / is not short lived and that she could have her love him enough to keep it going through out her life.

She is struggling with her feelings for him, she is too clear with what it is with him and that is what is making her scared. Coz she know.....this is short lived.