SHIPS.....Too many of them

Relationships seem to be the most simple and complex at the same time. The beauty of them being there and you are into one, can't be overlooked, unfelt. Myriads bloom here and there, all kinda, all flavours, each having its own meaning, each having its own charm. Can we live without them? No! we absolutely cannot, Yes! we might be, Yes! we can are the top three answers. The last one I've heard not from a living perosn. I have been a firm believer they are necessary.

But, what kind of them should be delved into. As known, hundreds prevail secretly and millions are visible. I share many relationships, one that binds me to my origin, one that binds me with my blood, one that binds me to my mate, one that binds me with play, one that binds me to humanity, one that binds me with nature, one that binds me to profession and may be one with this world. Are all special to me, YES !!! very special. I cherish loving my parents equally to loving a sibling. I cherish taking care of my spouse equally to taking care my aging Granny. I cherish being myself equally to caring for a street Dog, admiring the Sun, Delightful crescent, cold drops, Green world........

I cherish peace equally to FUN, I cherish being in her arms equally to having a boy's night out. For me they are all necessary, all equal, all responsible to keep the person I am. I am what I am coz of the relationship I indulge. They give me what I want from life and sometimes more than that.

But that's about "visible" relationships. Is it also necessary to have a secret one? Well.. I would again agree. One can have a secret relationship with self, with one's passion, with one' dream, with one's needs, identity, nature, world....... with opposite gender..the list is endless.

Do I have one? may be!! Is it special? May be!! It has its own charm and own desire. Secret relationship always tend to bring out the other person in you. Why?? The reason is a mystery, and hell..let it be. You tend to do things a lot differently or even more eagerly than for any other relation. There will be many who would simply agree.

Now what confirms for a secret relationship? Can I have a secret relationship with my wife? Of course I can !! As a matter of fact, I do. What is visible to the world is only a part of it. What is visible to the world is just the name tag outside the house. But I share a secret relationship with her, not visible to anyone else, not even to her. I do things completely different, overly stronger and unimaginably playful. Would I do with for any visible relation, I don't think so, would I do it if this relationship was visible to people around me. Not at all!!

The point is not about a secret relationship or the advantages of having one. The point is to understand the difference and the beauty. The point is to understand the person it makes you and things that you do or start thinking of doing. The point is to understand why a secret relationship brings out the best in you and not otherwise. What is it that makes it so special. What is it that makes one go that extra mile to do things s/he wouldn't do otherwise.

Is it the tickle of secrecy, is it the charm, is it the fear that always prevails, is it the whole concept, is it the new identity, or is it the passion????

Loads of questions but no answers or may be YES to all. Do I care for an answer, not at all!!

I don't want to spoil something beautiful by knowing the ifs and buts of it, the pros and cons, the good or the worse of it. Let me be in one, let me be in one completely, let me have my secret relationship and let me have my others too. Let me be what I am and all I am.

Let me be a son, a brother, a parent, a spouse, an engineer, a player......a Lover.



Let me take care of myself and my bondages and live happily ever after.