Hello World

hmmm....

This is the first time I am ever entering this world of free speech....or should I say free mind.....ironically which is difficult to do..........

So here goes my first attempt/ endeavor / effort / ....whatever ..........

Right now it is wednesday night 9:30 PM in Japan and I am sitting in the office wondering what the hell I am doing here....in this company ....at this place ......in this world...... ....

The job that I do is real challenging......... who said it is for me??................ The work that I do ..involves ....communication , PR , technical skills, logical reasoning, troubleshooting skills, presentation....blah blah blah........but that comes with customer support.

cutting the crap...... this job can put you on peak and trough within 10 minutes....... believe me that is not the beauty of this job.......the satisfaction that you get is more than the humilation it generates..........

Customer kudos and bashings can come on alternate phone lines......... and you are perplexed which moment to live in............ nonetheless its all part of the job. The only good part I can see is the last week of the month when pay time is approaching......... ... and it lasts till the balance lasts......

Work has never been a problem.......not even its harder part...... problem is the fun part....which keeps diminshing as you grow........ infact you indeed are responsible to make it miserable......blaming all on age..... accepting the grey matter is part of life .... and END OF FUN. accepting that you are no more the prince of nights ....but a knight at work....... accepting that you can't be adventurous with aging phsyique, accepting that ......some things are just meant for kids.....

Ohhh..cmon ....... be a sport....be a man.....be a kid.....haven't you heard..........what I always say...... You can be youth only once.....but you can be a kid forever....... cmon get up ...... lets have fun....... lets live life......lets make joy envy....lets make happiness jealous...lets make fun funnier....lets be aLIVE !!!!!

I am fast approaching mid 20s .......... I have been involved in all kind of sports in my ...so called passed YOUTH....... I have represented my school / college in any sport you can spell.....and not to mention....I always excelled......... Have been a mountaineer, rock climber, snow climber, trekker, athlete ( marathons ), player... ( all of them.)..... and what not all........ Wanted to go in ARmed services...but academics....ruined it all.........why do they want to check your chemistry marks for CDSE...nonetheless......but the point is...why does it ends with age.....why does it limit with strength....why do you have to be aged...and "TOO OLD" for all this...... Why can't I drive rash while I am 40 .....why can't I do bungee being a father of two...why can't I dance salsa...when I retire........ WHY CAN'T I ......... in the end....it is all what you accept.........


now.coming back to present..........

Sometimes I feel I still have it......... sometime I feel......I am getting old for all this......there was a time.......and then there was a time.......it is my past....and all those accolades...have become memories..and showpieces...... the medals don't bring the glory when i see them, the trophies don't pump the chest when glanced.... the Shields........ are just metal plates now..... and the certificates........... I don't even know what happened to them.....may be mom sold them and got some bucks made....

Just two days back I was riding world's fastest roller coaster.......and feeling YOUNG again..... and now in formals....in office....with specs...... I feel 10 years older again....... Does it happen with everyone .....the zeal..the passion......or is it me ...having an aging heart......which remembers to be weak and old...... amnesic about the fun and adventure.........


I still want to play basketball all sweatin topless .....I still want to run...with wind gushing on my face telling me to go faster........I still want to climb ...and see the world SMALL..... and feel being on top of this world....I still want to be proud of my winnings..I still want to be young......... Energetic, enthu,...passionate.....wild........ crazy..... aggressive...... but this world.....ohhhh this bad world....... ....

Don't worry....I will be a killer...... I will be a sport.......I will be ME...... again.... this weekend...when I go bungee....... and feel the wind on my face...and feel the YOUTH ...... back in me..... Feel "me" again.........

I shall come back strong ....strong on this age.....and tell the aging heart.......... Dude.....you aint going anywhere..... you are REMAINING A KID.... A KID AT HEART..........